Monday 23 August 2010

Fiction: The Three F's

"There are three animal responses to danger," the figure remarked. "Do you know what they are?"

He shook his head, worming against the uncomfortably tight bindings.

"During our training, we called it the three F's; fight, flight or freeze. Everyone and everything is subject to those three. After all, a human is just a slightly smarter animal." It paced around him slowly.

"When it comes to interrogation, it is highly important. If the instinct is to fight, then they must be broken. It is slow, and tedious, and tends to be rather permanent if you want to be sure of your results. If the instinct is to flee, then they panic, and anything you do only makes this worse... they babble, they spill out information both true and false. That too is time consuming and arduous."

"But the third... the instinct to freeze... that is something else entirely. If they truly freeze and do not resist it... they are putty in your hands, if you know how to work them."

The man continued squirming.

"You're fighting, Mr Arran. You are fighting not because it is your basic nature, nor because I have threatened that which you hold dear, but because you believe you have nothing to lose. You think we have taken away everything, and all that remains is to resist for the sake of your... friends, for want of a better word."

He gave up, eyeing the figure quietly.

"The instinct to flee arises from the need to survive. The tiger has spotted you and is approaching; you flee. But if the tiger is only near... you freeze."

The figure was behind him now. "You won't get anything from me."

"I have little doubt that you know little of importance, Mr Arran. But every little helps." There was a sting on the side of his neck, and he flinched.

"You've heard about many of the marvellously inventive drugs in this country, but I suspect you do not know this one." A pause. "We call it simply Freeze. As it hits your bloodstream, it stimulates the neurones in your brain associated with fear - while at the same time blocking your production of adrenalin. If you don't have the strength to run... you have no choice but to lie still, and pray not to be noticed."

"I... I won't tell you... anything..."

"You will."



As I was watching a rather shocking movie called 'Harry Brown' a couple of days ago, the concept of the Three F's came to me, and led to this little extract. Slightly paraphrased and reworked from the novel I'm writing.

Feedback and thoughts welcome!

So until next time... dig yourself, Lazarus.

Thursday 19 August 2010

Opposites

Goodmountain shook his head. "This is unholy stuff," he said. "No more meddling with it, understand?"

"I didn't think dwarfs were religious," said William.

"We're not," said Goodmountain. "But we know unholy when we see it, and I'm looking at it right now, I'm telling you."
Terry Pratchett, "The Truth"
"Slave is an Ephebian word. In Om we have no word for slave," said Vorbis.

"So I understand," said the Tyrant. "I imagine that fish have no word for water."
Terry Pratchett (again), "Small Gods"

Pratchett has a curious way of making very profound points. His books are undoubtedly funny, but often, they make you sit back for a moment and think.

About opposites, for instance.

It's an old adage that you can't have light without dark. How can you explain colours of light to a blind man? How can one explain the difference between birdsong and dogs howling to a deaf man? But is this true?

From a scientific point of view, analysis of light allows you to infer the existence of dark. You can say, "There are electromagnetic waves of a specific frequency that reflect off their surroundings and are absorbed by our eyes; there must be a state where these do not exist, and we shall call this 'darkness'." That's perfectly fine. But you couldn't look at pitch black and infer the existence of light. You might, at a stretch, say that there could be something. But you couldn't say anything about it. Just that, in an empty space, it is possible that there are spaces which are not empty. And even that is pretty debateable, if all you knew about was empty space.

Yes yes, if all you knew about was empty space, then what would you be? Let's leave the smartassery out of metaphysics, it spoils the fun of these thought experiments.

All right, Fen, I hear you say. So science can sometimes tell us about the opposite. But we won't know what it's like, will we? Of course not.

As part of the previously mentioned series on Quantum Physics and Relativity, the lecturer remarked in an early lecture on relativity that the only reason why it isn't obvious is that we live at too slow a speed, and in too little gravity to notice its effects. If we were some kind of being that regularly travelled near the speed of light, then it would be common sense. But because we don't, our common sense is misleading, and we find it hard to comprehend. It's even worse with quantum physics. If that minimum energy for photons were astromically higher, high enough to be noticeable, we'd live in a very bizarre world where quantum physics was common sense. But again, it's out of our experience, so it leaves us floundering.

Even smaller things, like trying to picture four-dimensional shapes; we can't do it from our 3D perspective. So just because we can infer the presence of an opposite in some cases doesn't mean we'll know what it's like.

So what about Pratchett's dwarfs and their concept of unholy? Are we simply getting drawn into a battle of linguistics? Clearly they know what 'holy' is, even if they don't believe in anything labelled as such. But do they have to? Pulling out a thesaurus and looking up 'unholy' provides profane, unhallowed, unsanctified, unblessed, sacriligious, godforsaken and accursed, so by dictionary definition, and by Goodmountain's remark, it is a psuedoreligious declaration. On the other hand, the omnipresence of gods in the Pratchett novels lends a slightly different atmosphere to the debate, so perhaps the whole debate is skewed.

So let's look at something else unscientific: good and evil. Can you have good without evil? Some philosophers, notably Kant and Bentham, would say yes. Although both argued very different things (Kant believed in absolute morals, Bentham in ones mutable according to the situation), there is a sense in both their ideas that there is a separate existence of good and evil.

"You know the thing about chaos? It's fair," the Joker says in 'The Dark Knight'. A better example of a truly amoral character is hard to conceive of. Not immoral, to do a little dictionary bashing; to be immoral, he would have to have a concept of good and evil that is fundamentally lacking. But is this true? Does he truly not understand?

I call upon another philosopher at this point, the cynical bastard AJ Ayer. His theory, Emotivism, essentially calls upon linguistics and looks at 'good' and 'evil' as personal judgements. They are what we make them. We can look at something and say 'yay', or 'boo' depending on our own feelings - that there is no objective good and evil.

The presence of an ethical symbol in a proposition adds nothing to its factual content. Thus if I say to someone, "You acted wrongly in stealing that money," I am not stating anything more than if I had simply said, "You stole that money." In adding that this action is wrong I am not making any further statement about it. I am simply evincing my moral disapproval of it. It is as if I had said, "You stole that money," in a peculiar tone of horror, or written it with the addition of some special exclamation marks. … If now I generalise my previous statement and say, "Stealing money is wrong," I produce a sentence that has no factual meaning—that is, expresses no proposition that can be either true or false. … I am merely expressing certain moral sentiments.
AJ Ayer, "Language"

You can consider from this the point of view that it isn't possible to have good without evil, because we automatically know what is good and bad for us, from the animal, instinctive part of our minds. So in a sense, the debate is meaningless. Either there is no objective right and wrong, in which case it comes down to personal definitions, or there is an objective right and wrong.

I'll stop before I get too deeply into the philosophical debate - could be a good topic for another day. But I will posit this thought: if we go by Ayer's definition, what if we lived in a world that we only liked or disliked? If have no experience of something that does not provide us pleasure (or pain), could we conceive of the opposite?

'Dr Horrible's Singalong Blog', the short film by Joss Whedon, considers this in a throwaway fashion, with the nemesis of the protagonist feeling pain for the first time at the end, and ending up bawling to a therapist in horror at the experience. Certainly Captain Hammer behaved in a deeply unpleasant fashion that could be taken to mean that he had no concept of other peoples' suffering.

So... this brings us, in a roundabout way, to the Tyrant's line. If we only know one thing, would we conceive of it? If we only experience pleasure, never pain, would we have a word for pleasure? Would it not be erased from consciousness, as a simple state of being? If we knew only light, would we not forget the words 'light' and 'dark'? And in turn, does this actually matter?

I think my brain is in too low a gear, the engine's complaining.

I think the conclusion is that it is possible to have one thing without its opposite. You can apply that to just about any concept. But would we have a concept of this? Possibly not.

Hopefully this vague collection of ideas has brought insight into your day.

Until tomorrow (in theory)... I am the hate you try to hide.

Thursday 12 August 2010

Quantum Physics and You

As the child of a family of what could be justifiably called intellectual snobs, I've been watching a DVD series about quantum physics recently.

It was in the latest episode that I came to an interesting philosophical conclusion, one which has some bearing on fiction. In a smartass kind of way, true, but I thought I would share.

I'll try to explain this as simply as possible, because it's a really cool idea. One of the most basic principles of quantum physics is that there is a minimum amount of energy anything can have. This includes the humble photon, which is basically a unit of light energy. In the case of a photon, you can say with reasonable accuracy that this minimum amount depends on the colour of the light - red light has a low minimum energy, while blue light has a high minimum energy.

Now, this minimum amount is so small that in the everyday world, we don't notice it. It's unimportant. But at the subatomic scale, it's relatively quite large.

Now, say that you want to look at a very small object, like an electron. If you want to find its exact position, you need a highly focused photon, which means it has to be closer to the blue end of the spectrum. This means you know exactly where the photon is, and thus can work out exactly where the object it bounces off of is.

But because it's high energy, it'll make the object change direction. So you know where it is, but not where it's going.

On the other hand, if you want to know where it's going, you can use a low energy, red photon. This won't disturb the object, so you know where it's going. But because it's an unfocused photon, you don't know exactly where it is, so you can't say exactly where the object is!

I'm aware that I'm striking a horrible middle ground where physicists will sneer and lay people will go 'huh?', but hopefully at least some of you will understand. The bottom line is, you can't know both where something is, and where it's going with absolute certainty, because the light you use to see this will affect what you're trying to find out.

Thus, the interesting philosophical thought: certainty is only possible without knowledge. You can be certain that everything has an exact position and velocity, but only if you don't try to find them out.

Physics lesson over. That was kind of interesting, Fen, I hear you say, but what's it got to do with writing?

Science fiction is an interesting genre, because there's so many ways of doing it. At one end, you have 'The Forever War', an interesting and cynical take on the future, which is one of the few that includes relativistic effects (and even making them key plot points - the protagonist is promoted from Private to General in three missions due to the amount of 'real' time that he's been in the military). At the other, you have things like the Culture universe, of 'Consider Phlebas' and 'The Player of Games', where intergalactic travel is almost casual, people build mountains as a hobby and switch genders for a change of pace. In the middle you have the near-reality of (the reimagined) Battlestar Galactica, and the well known middle grounds of Star Wars and Star Trek.

So what's my point? My point is that when it comes to writing sci-fi, it is possible to get too hooked up on the exact details of how stuff works. The reader doesn't care. Sure it's fun to play around with principles - I've come up with half a dozen methods of FTL travel with some kind of logical basis, but you don't need to explain exactly why things work. It's science fiction.

People care about the story, and the cool spaceships, that's all. They don't need to know about screwdrivers.

Unless they're sonic.

With that thought to consider, I leave you...

Until tomorrow... he lives in my basement, I can hardly face it.

Tuesday 10 August 2010

Stories

I've watched three movies recently - Inception, Donnie Darko, and Sherlock Holmes. And between them, I started wondering: why are they good? What aspect of the stories grabbed me?

Inception is a good movie - I'll stick my head out and say that right now. I thoroughly enjoyed it. However, I can accept that the storyline, from an objective point of view, is a bit iffy. The opening is confusing, there are plenty of holes, and the overall plot isn't exactly The Usual Suspects. So I can see why some critics were not big fans.

But it's not meant to be viewed objectively. You could argue that no movie is. If you're viewing it objectively, you're not suspending your disbelief, at which point, you might as well go home and forget it. Perhaps I'm overly forgiving of movies; I can enjoy almost anything (within my preferred genres) on the first viewing. I even thought Alien vs Predator: Requiem was good on my first viewing (subsequently I realised that it is, in fact, a steaming pile of buffalo droppings), and to date, there is only one movie which I genuinely found it hard to get through without mocking it (David Lynch's version of Dune). I still consider the 1998 version of Godzilla to be fun. (However, the film adaptation of Eragon, and to a lesser extent, Alien Resurrection, shall not be mentioned on pain of contempt.)

Which is, I suppose, the point - so long as I enjoy it, I don't have a great deal of time for intense debate about a movie's failings.

But I digress. The original point is that Inception is not a popcorn movie. The story is thoughtful, and most importantly, consistent. It keeps you inside, and it keeps you wanting to find out what happens next.

Thus, lesson the first: a story does not necessarily have to be perfect to be gripping.

Donnie Darko is an intensely weird film. Most films you can pin a genre on. Thriller, horror, sci-fi, fantasy, romance - they're fairly good labels. Donnie Darko doesn't seem to fit into them. By the presentation, you might think it's a horror movie - but there are no shocks or jumps, although some parts are somewhat freaky. The best I can come up with is 'drug-induced science fiction'.

Part of the reason that it's hard to define is that it makes no sense. Zero. You can watch it over and over, and things still don't seem to quite fit together. But somehow, it doesn't matter. It makes you think, and somehow accept that it's a strange tour of something beyond comprehension.

Thus, lesson the second: a story does not have to answer all its own questions.

And then Sherlock Holmes. I'm something of a devotee of the original Arthur Conan Doyle novels, and I care not what certain critics say: I thought it was true to the original tales in the parts that matter. That is, it felt like it had been written backwards.

I've discussed this with people, and they agree: Conan Doyle must have written the endings of the Sherlock Holmes stories first. It's the only way that he could have worked out exactly what clues to scatter where through the main narrative. And certainly, every clue in the movie matches up precisely, with not one little hint wasted. And yet they just pass you by, because they're such little things...

Thus, lesson the third: a story does not have to be overly complex to be smart.

With any luck, these little insights will be of interest...

So until tomorrow, dear readers... they call me the wild rose.

Saturday 7 August 2010

Love and Cynicism

Love, I think everyone will agree, is a strange beast.

It's a topic that has been written about thousands of times by thousands of authors. Shakespeare in particular has a wealth of interpretations and depictions throughout his plays, and it is on his work that I shall particularly focus my question; that is, what is a good love story?

The classic, of course, is 'Romeo and Juliet'. As love stories go, it's pretty hardcore; love in a "I don't want to live without you" kind of way. However...

I have to stand by the opinion that I came to when I first read the, about eight years ago. 'Romeo and Juliet' is a tragic story, yes. But it's also a merciless piss-take of the Italians. I simply don't find it real. Far too much grand, flowery poetic prose and rash, silly actions. Perhaps I'm being unfair, and I'm certainly in a minority, but I simply don't find 'Romeo and Juliet' all that moving. I can't relate to it. I'm sure that the emotions felt by the two characters are real, they are just expressed in a way that implies to me that it won't last.

"So if R&J leaves you cold, Fen, what doesn't?" I hear you cry thanks to a burst of schizophrenia.

'Henry V' is not exactly a romantic play. It's a story about the mighty warrior king who absolutely hammered the French and actually made some rare gains during the Hundred Years War. But when I saw it, Henry's proposal to the French princess did touch me. His speech was awkward, but earnest and impassioned, and that felt real. I certainly didn't feel the urge (or ability) to spout poetry at will during my last relationship. The cynic could point out that Henry's proposal was political, not emotional. It was simply a diplomatic move, nothing more.

Well, I liked it anyway.

Then, right at the other end of the spectrum, we have the charming tale of 'Measure for Measure'.

'Measure for Measure' is brutal. The central plot point revolves around the 'incorruptable' judge Angelo's lust and blackmail of a nun, Isabella. The only time love of any kind particularly plays an important role is in the case of Mariana, Angelo's ex-fiance who still holds feelings for him, and has become a heartbroken recluse since he dumped her. Even the loving couple of Claudio and Juliet have a relationship that is more indicative of lust than love; the first time we meet Claudio is at his trial for 'sexual immorality', for getting Juliet pregnant before their marriage.

Ok, the last bit is going a little far. They do have feelings for each other. They simply aren't particularly focused on by the play.

I can't help thinking that Shakespeare had gone through a bad patch in his love life when he was writing this, as even by my standards, 'Measure for Measure' is brutally cynical, right up to the resolution. Angelo, who has been tricked into sleeping with Mariana, is made to marry her. Another character is forced to marry a prostitute. And, with absolutely no warning, the character of the Duke, who has been sneaking around in disguise, orchestrating things and working around Angelo's mistakes, proposes to Isabella.

Those are the very last lines of the play. With little warning, he proposes to her. Almost complete non sequitur from the rest of the speech.

And, of course, because Shakespeare gives no (or almost no) stage directions, we have no idea what happens next. While I was studying the play, I remember hearing about a production where Isabella simply walked out in response. The critics found this rather bleak, so the actress was asked to take the Duke's hand instead in one performance. When it came to it, she felt that she couldn't in good faith to the role do so, and instead just walked off again.

So let's recap. Claudio and Juliet get happily married, having already ensured that they'll be having a child. Angelo is forced to marry a woman who he dumped, who still loves him, because he was tricked into thinking that he'd raped a nun. And the Duke randomly proposes to said nun, after orchestrating her escape and tricking of Angelo.

That's not a good love story. That's a cynical mess.

Great play, though.

In any case, I trust that you will take some thoughts from today's burble...

So until tomorrow... the music is outside.

PS: In case people haven't figured it out, these little snippets are song lyrics. Bonus points to people who spot the sources.

Thursday 5 August 2010

The Cult Moment (and Vampires)

The dish contained something shiny and wobbly and pink with a cherry on it,
and in some strange way it managed to look like something you wouldn't eat even
if it was pushed on to your plate after a week's starvation diet.

"What does it taste of?" said Masklin, after Gurder had chewed a
mouthful.

"Tastes of pink," said Gurder.

Terry Pratchett, 'Wings'


Ever since reading that, 'Tastes of pink' has become an inescapable phrase in my life. I'm quite convinced that Gurder is correct; there is such a thing as the taste of pink. Of course, there is a question as to whether what I'm tasting merely associates itself with pink, and if I'd never read the book, I'd never think to call it the taste of pink... but as it stands, the concept that pink is the only colour you can taste without needing synesthesia is lodged in my mind.

I'm sure we can all name a dozen little things that we've picked up over the years, some from utterly bizarre sources. Years after first seeing it, the line "Well... there's this nurse" from 'Shakespeare in Love' is still invariably used as a jokey way to begin a story. The majority of internet memes, most notably "All your base are belong to us", can be traced back to a seemingly innocent remark (or, in that particular case, extremely bad translation of an innocent remark).

So how and why are these little 'cult moments' formed? Certainly we all react to them differently. I'm sure that most of the world, on reading the "Tastes of pink" line merely chuckled and moved on.

Pretty much all of them that I can think of are funny in some way; whether the satirically true consideration of airline food in Pratchett, the the dry humour from 'Shakespeare in Love', or unintentionally hilarious mistranslation, all the examples I've used are somehow amusing. And that, I think, is the core of it. After all, we're all slightly different. Our senses of humour are all distinct. The trick about writing a cult moment, based on that, is that it has to be short, quoteable, and funny. From there, human nature can take up the rest.

The question then arises, is it possible to write something that everyone will quote? I have my doubts, but it's an infinite multiverse...

Now, by request, and since this post is a tad short as it stands, I shall go on to one of my pet peeves. Fluffy vampirism.

Ever since its popularisation by the novel 'Dracula', the vampire mythos has captured the imagination of the world. Vampires are somehow popular. Exactly why we're so fascinated by these creatures of the night is a topic for another time, but the fact is, they are.

Unfortunately, some novelists don't seem to really understand what vampirism means.

What is a vampire? A nocturnal, parasitic, camouflaged superpredator. That's it! That's a vampire in a nutshell! Playing with the various traits of vampires is fine. The rules set down by 'Dracula' are hardly set in stone. But at their heart, something which cannot be changed without taking away the fact of vampirism, is that they are predators.

So in other words, no, they are not mopey, sparkly, pale, emo types that teenage girls with no personality squeal over.

We're vampire food. These are creatures that, in most sources, are faster and stronger than us, have a grab bag full of special powers, and can only survive by drinking human blood. This does not provide a good basis for a love affair.

I'm not pooh-poohing the whole concept of human-vampire relationships. Of course they're possible. What I do doubt is any kind of two-way love. A human can love a vampire, but the vampire will most likely just view the human as a kind of favoured pet.

World of Darkness, True Blood, even Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Anita Blake; they've got it right. Please. Can we have less of the Twilight gibberish? Hell, just give vampires a rest for a while. They've been done to death. They're old news. Let the poor things sleep in their coffins for a few years.

On that note, I must sign off. I trust that this has been an enlightening insight onto my twisted mind.

So, until tomorrow... When I am king, you will be fast against the wall.

Wednesday 4 August 2010

'Evil'

A few weeks ago, I remarked a little sadly to a friend that I don't seem able to write a simple, innocent, basically good character any more. It always gets... complicated.

You would not be unjustified in saying that I have a thing for 'evil' or 'broken' characters; perhaps for the same reason that we read with interest about serial killers. We want to know why, what makes them tick, what leads them to their actions. For me, it is much the same.

One of the best examples that springs to mind is that of Selene Sundheim, AKA Inferno. She's an anti-hero in Dark City, my personal take on the superhero concept. Selene is borderline psychotic, cynical as hell, and a drug addict. Her last actions before disappearing from society for years were to burn down her school, and murder her own father. Yet somehow, in the dystopic world of corporate corruption in Dark City, she's one of the good guys! I've remarked several times to a friend who I've bounced ideas off for a long time that in any other universe, she would be a perfect villain... but in Dark City, she's just extreme. She's the victim of a horrible childhood, a bad environment, and a hundred other circumstances.

By contrast, there's Edgar Coralsten, AKA Terminus, also from Dark City. Terminus is not one of the good guys. He's nominally on the same side as the story's protagonists, but he was kicked out of the little band of rebels for being too extreme.

I like Terminus, as a concept, because he's utterly off the wall. He's smart, and his incredibly destructive acts of terrorism mark him as your average scheming villain... but he has a strong cockney accent, and is always quoting Robespierre, the architect of The Terror during the French Revolution. Both Terminus and his role model are pretty despicable men... but that above friend once remarked that it's oddly hard to argue with him.

So where's the gap? What makes Inferno a hero and Terminus a villain? Both are fighting against the looming, faceless corporate oppressors who make up the backdrop of Dark City. Both kill without hesitation, and both are wanted criminals. Where's the line that Terminus has crossed and Inferno has not?

It's little questions like that that keep bringing me back to writing 'evil' characters - plus, of course, the aforementioned "What makes them tick?". The idea of 'The Cage' is one that I've returned to a few times, espoused by a couple of unmitigatedly evil characters in short stories and concepts; the idea that everyone has a beast inside, imprisoned in the cage of society's rules, and most of all, the consequences of their actions. When the consequences no longer matter, the beast is released.

A rather bleak and cynical view, perhaps. But is there some element of truth to it? Don't we all, as we go through life and meet people, have little flashes of what we could do, but don't, partly because of the consequences?

It puts me in mind of the werewolf myth, the literal beast within, released at the full moon to rampantly destroy... but during the day, just an ordinary person, obeying society's rules. I've always preferred vampires to werewolves, mind... but please note that anyone mentioning Twilight to me will be stared at disappointedly for some time.

Although, I confess, I am interested to read the book (or at least try to), simply to see if I can work out what the hell the fuss is all about. Vampires are a sad case, so devastatingly hackneyed and overused... but I digress.

For now, dear readers, I leave you to consider the concept of 'the beast within'.

Until tomorrow... I hurt myself today, to see if I still feel.

Tuesday 3 August 2010

Poem: Ragnarok

I'm going to try not to make a habit of just copy-pasting old work, but today I shall make an exception. Partly because I'm slightly short on time, but mostly because of some happy news. The poem I mentioned before, that I thought lost, has been found. A good friend of mine, the only person I sent it to online, hoarded it away for nearly two years and was able to return it to me last night.

So, without further ado, I present: Ragnarok.



The sharpness of an ocean pebble and the beard of a woman


My muse calls

Sparks fly

Death calls

Bodies must be cast to its steel jaws


Why?


Ragnarok.


The bluntness of a surgeon’s blade and the sound of a cat’s paw

Black stars

Green oceans

The world is beautiful

But none see it save I


Why?


Ragnarok.


The softness of armoured steel and the roots of a mountain

Landscapes flash

Prey runs

Predator chases

Irrelevant yet necessary


Why?


Ragnarok.


The hardness of down feathers and the breath of a fish

Time, time

Infinite yet insufficient

My soul pours out

To quell the needs of the word


Why?


Ragnarok.


The nerves of a bear and the spittle of a bird

“To see a world in a grain of sand

And a heaven in a wild flower

To hold infinity in the palm of your hand

And eternity in an hour.”


Why?


Ragnarok.


***


Three children began it

The wolf, the serpent and the dead

A trickster’s lechery

Spawned


Ragnarok.


To the depths

Cast she of the dead

The Queen of the inglorious dead

To wait until


Ragnarok.


To the edge

Cast the snake of worlds

The serpent that bites its tail

To wait until


Ragnarok.


Bind with chain

The wolf of eternity

Entangle with paradox

To wait until


Ragnarok.


And the father

For his crime of murder

Capture forever

To wait until


Ragnarok.


***


Thus comes the end

The great winter

“An axe age, a sword age, shields are cleft asunder,

A storm age, a wolf age

Before the world plunges headlong”


Sun and moon, be consumed

Wolf and father, be freed

Serpent, return

Warriors, be ready

Herdsman, play thy harp


Ragnarok comes.


Fire, begin the slaughter

Serpent, slay and be slain

Wolf, consume the king and receive retribution

Father, kill and be killed

Fire, end the slaughter

The hall burns

The rainbow dies

The world ends


Ragnarok.


***


Begin anew

Come forth, humanity

All is lost

All is new

All is lost


In Ragnarok.


Life demands escape

Mundanity grinds us down

Our world is made of the ashes


Of Ragnarok.


You ask why?


For the choice of ashes and the wolf


Enter Fenris.




I don't often write poetry. It's a hard medium for me to grasp, but sometimes, it's the only thing that works. The three poems that I wrote during my two-year stint at the creative writing club at school were the work that I was possibly most proud of. Those, sadly, truly are dead and gone, due to the misfortune of Windows dying, memory sticks going astray, and no longer having access to the old school computers.

...I wonder if my account has been deleted yet? Probably.

In any case, dear readers, I now bid you farewell until tomorrow. Hopefully I'll have a little more time, and be able to provide something original...

Until then... please trip them gently, they don't like to fall.

Monday 2 August 2010

Wolf Thoughts

Beginnings are odd things.

I always have trouble with them. I can generate the grand scenes, develop the plot, write down the history to the nth degree... but actually starting the story? God forbid.

So I shall obey the piece of wisdom that my mother always imparts when I struggle to say something: burble.

Some of you may know me, some may not. It doesn't particularly matter. I have many, many names - some might know me as Shard, some as Mortis, and some even by my real name, Joshua. Here, in this strange little world of ideas and thoughts that I hope to create, I am Fenrissen.

So your first question, no doubt, is "Why Fenrisian Ashes? What does it mean?"

I've always been fond of Norse mythology. Although I enjoy the old Greek myths, and have some fascination with Egyptian legends, it is the Norse gods that I always return to. Zeus always seemed complacent; the guy had no challengers, all the old wars over, and he was able to transform and ravish any woman he liked. Compare that to Odin, a solid bastard who literally sacrificed an eye for wisdom, and who was destined to die fighting the great wolf, Fenris.

Which brings us to Fenris himself. The son of the trickster god Loki and a giantess, the brother of Hel, Queen of the Dead, and Jormungand, the serpent so great that it encircled the world and swallowed its own tail. The wolf that never stopped growing, and could only be bound by a ribbon made from the roots of a mountain, the breath of a fish and the beard of a woman.

Safety tip: dwarves are sneaky buggers.

The story of Fenris was one of my favourites. He broke every shackle placed upon him, until the Asgard despaired of holding this creature that they were beginning to fear so; and so they went to the dwarves, and obtained this strange ribbon, made from things that supposedly do not exist.

Fenris eyed the ribbon suspiciously, and refused to be bound in it, suspecting trickery - for every time before, the binding had been something of a game. The gods persuaded him by allowing one of their number, Tyr, to place his hand in Fenris' mouth - and when the great wolf realised that he truly was bound to the spot, he tore the hand off, before being left to wait until he was set free.

Which brings us to Ragnarok, the Norse apocalypse myth. Fenris breaks free, and Odin goes to fight him - but the wolf has grown so large that he swallows the King of the gods in one bite, before himself falling to vengeful rage of Thor. Then, as the death and carnage reaches its peak, the world is burned to ashes by a giant. But it's ok, because a man and a woman are safe within the burned trunk of Yggdrasil, the World Ash, and they emerge to make a new world.

This last part made me think, and led me to write a poem that I have, sadly, lost. It retold the story of Ragnarok, with a little twist; the idea that it has already happened, and the world that we live in is the world rebuilt from the ashes.

Everyone at my creative writing club thought it was your average teenage emo depression poem, which is where I learned the truth of the stereotypical poet's cry: "Nobody understands me!" In truth, it was an answer to a question; why do I write?

The short version is that... well... the real world is fundamentally dull.

There are other stories I could tell about how I ended up writing this, but they can keep. For now, my dear readers, consider your own wolves...